We grow up, we figure it out, we stop doing that stuff.
It is unlikely, being as self-aware as you are now, that you will repeat those same mistakes.
We all grow up on stories and messages where men go out and do great deeds and they rescue and/or win the love of women. These are the messages you are swimming in, and they are affecting your life.
It will feel like “” The fact that you have lots of female friends is also an encouraging sign. So let’s talk about some stuff you can do differently to improve your life and your chances of meeting someone you’d like to be with.
While I think you have some particular cultural stuff you’re also trying to sort out, my advice to young straight men who want to meet women is always going to be about subverting the dominant dating paradigm and the sexist culture we grow up with, and it’s always gonna run along the same lines: 1) Read books & blogs, watch films, look at art, and listen to music made by women.
I’m fast becoming isolated, I’ve zero self confidence and my self esteem has taken a nose dive, a combination of truly looking into the mirror for once and a mystery illness.
I don’t think I look handsome, but a lot of people have said that I do.
For most of my teenage years, I didn’t need people and I didn’t need love.